I thought about self-harming.
But then I looked at my beautiful baby girl. I can’t do that to her. I know and will stay strong for her. I can get through anything, for her.
I love you so much Rosalie Jean❤️❤️
Guys… I posted this almost a year ago. It’s been 2 years since I self harmed. I’m so happy:„)
Or post much about rosalie and our lives because I know once sperm doner is out of jail in october I’m deleting.
I’m really fucking happy everyone. I don’t remember the last time I was able to walk around my house with a smile on my face all day and feel free.
Garrett protects me and makes me feel at home. And he loves rosalie. No we haven’t even thought about him replacing her dad but I’m not letting him ever see her till I know he has gotten help and is clean.
So until then coming October, I will have to delete because I don’t want him knowing or seeing anything.. I’ve had this tumblr for almost 5 years. I’ve spilled my heart out, even wrote a suicide note on here but some things I gotta let go of.
It is not fair to plant yourself like flowers in someone’s veins and then decide to rip your roots out.
When I love you,
I really fucking love you.
There are no in betweens.
I don’t know what grey is.
My love is black and white.
I’ve been hurt so bad and I still love so hard. I admire my heart for that.